this lately I feel so dilemma.. one side (the stronger one) I want to get out.. already bored with all of this and feel burden with it.. everyday in the morning.. so hard to drive and really makes me want to cry.. dunno why.. and it seems, everyday I push myself to do what I have to do.. push myselft to keep smiling when see my inbox full and when the phone ringing all the time..
do A.. fixing B.. checking C.. what the ... >_<
but the other side.. I think bout.. my plan 1 year later... and people around me that always said to stay..
I want to do other things for my life.. and it seems I cannot do.. coz everyday I go home.. I feel so tired already...
huahh.. I cannot find the reason why I have to stay, anymore.. :-?
btw, actually how can I know what I want the most in my life ya? anyone knows?